7.What is your current state of mind?

My current state of mind is ever changing. I guess now I am just concerned about my parents, my mothers condition, her impending death, my father's heart and how he will handle losing his wife. My state of mind is about being lonely and not having anyone to really reach out to when I'm distressed. It's hard being away from family when there is somewhat of a tragedy happening back home. I was always the grounded one of my family, and they turn to me on a regular basis. I have also had to be the one in my family to make big changes, to have the courage to do so, and to just make things happen. My parents have been married for 45 years now, and I can hear the sorrow in my fathers voice when I talk to him. He feels helpless in the condition of my mother, but he is also not seeing reality and looking, or hoping, for a miracle. My heart aches for him, for my sisters, and for myself in the coming loss of my mother. Being alone doesn't help, I have friends, but in my time of wanting to be weak, it would be nice to have that shoulder to lean on and cry on.