to swim, to run

The water carries me, it's the only time I feel lifted, suspended, and weightless. I love swimming, and used to be on the swimming team for my high school. I had more fun than speed or sports agility, but I could swim, I had longevity and stamina, I was one of the few who could do the 100yd swim. I swim now. It's the only time I feel free, graceful, like a ballet dancer performing on the floor, I do what I can, but in the pool. I swim in a 50 meter Olympic size pool, I have a goal of being able to do 32 laps, which is a mile. I swam yesterday, and today. I didn't count my laps yesterday, but today I swam 12 laps, so that's almost 1/4 of a mile.. seems weak, I walk three miles, and have run a mile, but it is different swimming. Someday I might do a triathalon, I have always wanted to. I can train as if I am, and leave the actual doing it up to whether I feel up to it or not. I do think I should enter some 5Ks and start somewhere. I have always been competitive, but try to do it in other areas, at work, home, with the kids, etc.. I should be self competitive. Count my track, my laps, do better the next time, push myself always. I can try to do it.. But as Yoda says "Do or do not, there is no try"